My Not So Perfect Life

I have been feeling rather stressed with everything that has been going on over the last few days. I always have a busy life so it is not the fact that I have a lot of things that need doing which is getting to me. It is the stress, things have changed so much recently and I have been letting it effect me more than is healthy.  Today I had a day off, normally I try to make sure that my days off are spent as productively as possible so that I can get things done and feel as though I have made the most of me time. However today was different, I needed to take the time for myself to relax and unwind. As a result I hardly got anything done, I relaxed and spent time with my dog and my partner.  Now I am feeling much better. I have spent the last few weeks unable to concentrate on things and being very unproductive but taking a bit of time away where I didn't stress myself out about how productive I was being has made m...

In the UK we have been in lockdown for a few weeks now and it is starting to feel a lot more normal now. This means that some parts of this are starting to feel a bit easier, like working from home all of the time and not having to worry about what I am wearing at all (I am pretty much living in yoga pants and t-shirts). However there are other parts of this that I am still finding difficult. It is hard not being able to catch up with my family in person. I am not really that fussed about seeing lots of people all of the time but it is nice seeing my family every week or so and I am missing that side of things. The second thing that I am struggling is not being able to go for a walk more than once a day. I living on the outskirts of my city because I enjoy getting out into nature for walks and even more so when I am stressed about something. This means that being stuck in the house most of the day is quite difficult for me. I am lucky to have access to a small garden (I know that t...

I had an interview for a new job this week, this isn't something that I do very often. It made me realise how different this process is now from when I first started my career. I have been working in my particular field for a number of years now so I have plenty of experience at doing this kind of job. When I first started looking for jobs I had very little experience of working and I didn't really know what I wanted to do as a career. This meant that when I was applying for jobs and going to interviews I was just hoping that someone would give me a chance to prove myself. I didn't really give a lot of thought or lots of questions about what the job or employer could offer me because I either didn't have a job or the job I was in was really not what I wanted to do meaning that I didn't have a lot to lose by leaving my current role and starting a new one (even if it turned out to not be right for me in the long run). Now however, I am in a job that is much better...

If there is one thing which has been consistent for all of my life it is probably that is struggle to stick up for myself even when I know that something is not right. This means that I have spent a lot of my life getting picked on of taken advantage of. This is compounded by the fact that I don't like feeling as though I am letting someone down and I enjoy helping others. At school this took the form of bullying and it was very obvious but now I am in the world of work things are a lot more subtle but never the less they are still there. This is so subtle that at first it isn't easy to notice, if fact it is only be comparing the way that you are treated against others that you realise that there is something wrong. Over the years it has become increasingly clear to me that there are a lot of times when I get put into situations which others in my position would not but put into because they think that I am not going to make a fuss about it of stick up for myself. For the mos...

I have noticed that most diet plans, such as those that you seen in the media as well as the recommended calorie levels in apps sets a calorie goal for women at about 1,200 calories. With some diets (such as those that you would classify as crash diets) set the goals at closer to 800 calories. I think that this is a dangerous trend for a number of reasons. Firstly, it doesn't take into account the differences between people. The diet apps tend to do a bit better on this front as you input your details at the start of the process but this isn't something which is considered for a lot of other diets (this includes the NHS which suggests all women need 1,400kcal to lose weight). Having a low calorie goal is fine if you are small and sedentary but this in not the case for everyone. I am tall for a women and I am generally active (before even factoring in exercise) so if I was to try to stick to such a low limit I would feel really bad and miserable which would probably make me qu...

I am sure that many people would understand where I am coming from when I say that I find it really hard to get rid of things. For a lot of people this would probably come from an idea that it might be something that they might need one day but for me it is slightly different. I really dislike waste and the idea of adding to landfill waste. I have a lot of things in my house that I don't really use and probably never will be don't want to get rid of them if it means throwing them away. I have tried to give things away to charity before but I find even this hard as this usually involves putting things in a bin or a plastic bag which feels a lot like throwing them away. There is also no guarantee what is going to become of them once they have been sent away. I have recently decided however that in order to try and make some more room in the house I am going to sell a few of my items online. It makes me feel better to feel as though these items will be used by someone else rat...